When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

As I was trembling of excitement while buying the Coldplay tickets for next year’s Bucharest concert for two of my best friends and yours truly, it all made sense.

You see, last year I tried to buy tickets for the same tour, but in Amsterdam and I did not succeed. Even though I imagined myself at the concert, even though I felt it in my guts that it was something I was ment to experiment, it didn’t happen. Last year in August I wouldn’t have imagined that they would ever come to Romania, so I put my dream on hold.

Months passed, Insta stories and videos from their concerts kept showing up and my dream grew and grew and grew. Then, my small episode of depression hit, as I was jobless, pointless and purposeless. What was there to dream about? What was there to look forward to? Another morning, another walk in the park, another TV series and another early bedtime.

As I read Viktor Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning, I was desperate to find a strong enough purpose and a beautiful enough meaning for my existence. Comparing my life with those living through the Holocaust was only making it seem even smaller and pettier, if that’s possible. The purpose of taking more steps today than the day before seemed so insignificant that it made me even more depressed.

Then, out of nowhere, in the past week, I got a job interview, I spoke in French with a frenchman to asses my language level and got a B2, I got the job and will start at the beginning of August and, most of all, I GOT THOSE GODDAM TICKETS!

So, yes, manifestations works, only not when we want them or believe we are ready for them, but when the Universe knows that we are ready to handle them. This is just another proof that the house you want, the vacation you dream about, the partner you envision or the miraculous healing you so passionately picture when you close your eyes is just waiting for you to be ready. Keep dreaming because everything you can imagine is real.

So, my future self dedicates the beautiful lyrics of the song Fix You to my present self. I have a purpose now, a strong, magnificent and heart warming purpose to be better, to feel better, to act better, to dream better and to wait better.

The future is only as good as you dream it. And the dreams are only as good as your imagination. So, be free, have the faith of a child and the patience of a wise old man and, most of all, be a dreamer.